Saturday, 5 July 2014

In search of the peace hiding within the uproar...

There are times when it feels like you are stuck in a world of clamor amongst narrow-minded mundanes and you don't belong here. A moment of silence feels divine and the unnecessary banter around you feels excruciating. Somehow, nothing seems interesting. Everyone seems to be engrossed in something and everyone has an unnecessary reason to smile except, you. Keeping up with a conversation starts taking more efforts and the usual stupidity with the people around you isn't fun anymore. You want to shut out everyone, close your eyes, go deaf to the human loudness and spend time with your soul. Something, somehow constantly disturbs your thoughts and you wish to be alone but, the world isn't a wishing well which is always ready to fulfill your desires. Doing your thing silently comes naturally and taking an initiative doesn't seem worth it. Sitting at one place, staring at one point you try to gather your disturbed thoughts but, fail every moment. The world which seemed intriguing yesterday seems dull and boring today. The optimism dies out and you are consumed by the negativity of your own soul. You start to notice the minor details, details which do nothing but add up to your misery and this feeling of shutting down the world intensifies. Things people say pass through your mind leaving no effect and the smile someone just flashed you isn't easy to reciprocate because, all you can do is stare back at them. The sadness instilled within you solidifies it's foundation. The time spent in company seems unnecessarily long and the time spent alone, sacred. Epiphanies arise and guilty floods your mind, memories hidden in your subconscious mind start to poke you and all you want to do is yell out in agony. The rest of the world counts you to be patient whereas your mind is running out of emotions to express. And, whilst all this happens, all you do is crave nothing but solitude.


9 comments:

  1. Awesome Aarohi!
    'the feeling to shut down the world intensifies'
    this was touching :')

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    1. Thank you, it means a lot to me! :D

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  4. Each and every single word of this article is absolutely true.
    And i am running out of words to praise the writer.
    She is amazing.

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    1. I am glad you liked it, thank you! :'D

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